I went into the gym at 9.30 and met Kath at 11 for her to go in, and for me to look after baby Cara. Then we had lunch together. This worked well and I think we’ll do it again on Thursday. While Kath was in the gym I got a call from my usual school asking me to work today. Of course I said yes, I can’t afford to pick and choose. However, the class I was asked to cover is a tough one and I had a bit of a panic. As cara was asleep I sat on a bench in a sunny spot and wrote out my worries.
1. Planning might not have been left. (This rarely happens if a teacher knows that they will not be there, but if the teacher was unexpectedly ill then the supply teacher has to think fast!)
2. I may struggle to get the attention of the kids. (I’m often scared, with an older class, that I will call the kids to attention and they will choose to ignore me. It very rarely happens but sometimes you have to be pretty scary to command attention. I am not naturally scary!)
3. Children may not take me seriously.
Then I wrote out solutions.
1. I’ll spend tonight planning 2 lessons that can be used with children of any ability.
2. I will establish a way of gaining attention (putting my hand up in the air and expecting them to copy) and then quickly reward those that comply.
3. If the children prove to be difficult to control then I’ll offer an end of the day incentive, such as a game of rounders, to keep them on track through the day.
Once I had written this list my panic level went from an 8 to a 3. It jumped up to a 5 when I woke up this morning but a little bit of nervous energy never harmed me 🙂 If my panic/nerves level had stayed at an 8 then I probably would have lost my cool. I am a firm believer that kids can’t see a crack in the facade! In the end I had a tough day, but not a terrible day. Plus I got to leave at 2:30 🙂 Of course I will only get paid till 2:30 too though!
Now I know that you are probably not at all interested in teacher talk, but I thought I’d share my strategy to control nerves. I’m a huge fan of notebooks, and writing things down. For me, writing a plain list of worries is pointless though, all it does is make them concrete, I also have to plan an attack!
Do you use notebooks for anything? What do you do when you find yourself worried?
Nerves provide me with energy. They work for me. It’s when I don’t have them, when I feel at ease, that I get worried. ~Mike Nichols
As a cure for worrying, work is better than whiskey. ~Thomas A. Edison
Lunch was had at the pool cafe with Kath. I had a cheese toastie on brown with a small salad and crisps.
I also had a snack after doing my shopping; strawberries, yoghurt and cheerio clusters. I need someone to steal the cheerio cluster, they are so addictive.
Dinner was simply chicken and rice. It was also simply heaven.
I can’t get photos to work on wordpress at the minute. I haven’t got time to sit and fight it so I’ll try and add them in later!
I’m off to the post office to return a dress and then make my dinner 🙂 See you later!